Hello, I had yet another drop in faith but this time it was different how I sort of ‘bounced back’. I had broken my sin of masturbation for about two weeks and it came back about a week later and the temptation lasted about two-three days after that. Now during just the temptation I felt in a struggle to not sin but on the losing side of it.
Though the strange thing was once I fell into sin again for the final time; after about three mintues I sort of had a self-examine and realized that it wasn’t such an Earthly pleasure worth damning myself for. I didn’t get an empty feeling like other times but more like a spiritual uplifting. It acually felt like “when your on the dirt floor, the Lord will lift your spirit”
Anyways I don’t even have that scruplous thoughts about how it’s too early to Confess or if I am really sorry about my sins. I do feel the shame of the sins and really the point of this topic is to ask what do you call this uplifting of spirit when you have fallen to the lowest point of your sin? I’d like to remention that before this during the temptation part I felt like a mental wreck with this feeling like I had to fight the battle alone, but after falling to IMO the lowest point of sin for myself I could feel as if I was lifted up again to be given another chance.
To end this I would like to mention that I’m feeling much more confident in my struggle against sin, and plan to confess at the first open moment.