I’d like to humbly plea you for some prayers.
I’m having some very painful experience. It concerns one girl-friend of mine. We were not going out together so we are not breaking up now, we were just very close. We just used to be good friends.
I just feel like if you had flower you always tried to tend to, water it etc and it dies out. As if you got raped, then forgave that person, but you didn’t want to see the offender because you know how he hurt you. As if you had somebody you really cared for and he spat directly to your face.
It is not something that happened over night. This feeling started a year ago and though I always tried to forgive that person it just happened that during the time you got just more hits between the eyes. This week we kind of argued about these things but finally forgave each other for everything.
I forgave her. We pulled the nails out of the wood. But the stupid holes still remain. I just feel being betrayed by somebody you trusted very much. By somebody that I could say was the person that influnced me the most in my life. I just find it very very very unfair. That’s all.
But perhaps this is true, right?!