Today for some reason, I thought about a night when I feared I might have unintentionally consecrated myself to Mary. I was praying the chaplet of virtues, which I had done before, but for some reason the first time(s) I prayed it, I either didn’t notice the consecration prayer, or thought it was simply a prayer asking Mary to pray that my actions be used for the good of the kingdom. I don’t think I meant for it to truly be a solemn dedication that went any further than a prayer to Mary. I read it that night, but with the same intention even though I knew a bit more about Marian consecration. I said the words but I think I probably meant them as not a full consecration to Mary, but rather just as I had meant them the first times I had prayed the chaplet. Honestly, I wasn’t ready for consecration to
Mary, and I still am not.
Is this prayer a prayer of total consecration to Mary?
Did I consecrate myself unintentionally?
If I did, do I have any obligations that go along with this prayer?
As most of you know, I suffer from scruples. It is getting better, because since speaking with a priest, I have learned to simply pray for acceptance of my weaknesses, and then stop thinking about the scrupulous thought that is bothering me. Sometimes I worry that I justify my sins, even more serious ones, but I try to trust that God will stand by me as long as I long to be able to do His will.
I read a previous thread from someone in a similar situation. The responses seemed to suggest a theme of
how could you not have sensed the seriousness of the prayer?. I honestly feel as though I probably didn’t know the full extent of the prayer. I tend to be careful about consecration/vows as they are an OCD theme for me and tend to stress me out.
Did I need FULL intention in order to make it valid, as I would with a vow?