I’m a tad confused about my state of my soul when I received the Eucharist yesterday.
The day before yesterday me and my mother disagreed about something, but I was determined not to argue. All we did was disagree about whether the pro-police flag was racist or not. We did not yell at each other. Just a simple disagreement, and I said I didn’t want to start arguing. I am almost 99% certain that I did not sin here. Why would it be a sin to disagree with your mother?
However, this is where I am confused. At Mass there were some females dressed kind of immodestly. I kept trying to look away, and telling myself that I did not want to lust. I also said some prayers. At no time did I say yes to lusting. However, my peripheral vision kept trying to look at them, while I kept trying to look away. The peripheral vision issue was on and off throughout the Mass. I had figured I hadn’t sinned here because I never wanted to look at them or lust.
After these two occurrences I figured I was good to go, and I went up to receive the Eucharist. What do you guys think? Was I in a state of mortal sin when I received the Eucharist? I’m a bit confused. :o