Yesterday I spoke with a priest. He said I had grounds for annulment and I could nullify the matrimony at any time, even if I take him back and he screws up again. That lifts a great weight off my shoulders because now I feel I can make a choice one way or another without the pressure of obligation. He strongly suggested marriage, as well as individual, counselling. I told my husband about it and he agreed to seek individual counselling also.
I started the Love Dare (from the movie Fireproof) today, but the more I’m reading the more I realize I should do it for myself. Today’s dare is patience. I have not been patient with myself and my healing. I’ve been too anxious to get over it, I think I’m hindering progress. So for today, I will have patience with myself as well as my husband.
Please pray for us, and for me that I may find strength to heal.