I know I have asked all of you for prayer so many times, and I need to ask again today.
I am so upset over the things that have been going on recently. I am just crying. I can’t believe any of this. My separated husband and I are in the middle of a divorce, as I have talked about before. My husband has been put into the psychiatric hospital twice in the last month, and he is still in now. He attempted suicide (superficially) then was treated and released. A week later at work, he started digging at his wounds and landed back in the mental hospital. He has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, ADD, and gender identity disorder. He is in the air force, and will be medically discharged sometime soon. His career is over. Now the kids will not have insurance, even though it’s his responsibility to provide it.
Today, I found out from his supervisor that he is living with a woman he knew for a couple of days before moving in with her. She’s running around with his credit card while he’s in the hospital. I asked soon-to-be ex-husb and he swears they’re just roommates - she just cooks and cleans and everything, helps pay the bills. I don’t believe it. She does not even have a job. I know this should not bother me, but my feelings are really hurt. I am so upset at how easily I was replaced. I thought I was special to him, but I really was just someone to take care of his basic needs. I put every ounce of myself into this marriage, my entire heart and soul, and I was just nothing to him. Just someone to take care of his needs. I was nothing.
Now he is saying that he is strongly considering having a sex change after he gets out of the military. I can’t believe what a miserable situation this is. What about his sons? I don’t want him to cause me any more pain. They did a strip search of him at the hospital in front of his supervisor because he was on suicide watch, and he had woman’s underwear on. He is ordering breast forms and things from weird Internet stores. He is just so messed up. Now I have to worry about the visitation arrangement.
Please, please, please pray for me. I am hurting so deeply. I just wanted a good marriage, and a nice, happy home. I did all I could. Nothing I did mattered. All he did was take from me. He still does. I am hurting indescribably now. When will this just be over? Please pray for my boys and I. Thank you very much.