I am so sick and bawling my eyes out and I don’t know what to do. I am all alone. I have a flea infestation. I bombed but it doesn’t seem to have done any good. I am disabled and I’m having to clean all by myself. NO friends or family. My caregiver won’t come because of the fleas. I can’t blame her.
And I can’t afford Orkin or Terminix. I can’t stand being all alone with no help. I pray but I don’t know what I’m doing wrong. Please pray that an organization will step up to the plate. I need manpower. I can’t do this alone.
Imagine living in a cabin in the woods all by yourself. That is my life.
I don’t always think of me but now I’m being selfish. And thinking being disabled with all these illnesses and trying to clean and eating scares me because of the cramps which I’ve had for two weeks. I don’t feel like eating is making me sicker. I’m dizzy and think it’s better if I’m not here. I can’t take any more.
Lord, I don’t know what I"ve done to deserve this. But, You are my Everything and I’m Your child. Please, please help me.
No car, no neighbors. No Churches that will help. No one. No family, friends or anyone. And on my lease, it says I’m responsible for everything.
Why was I born to just suffer since I was little? I don’t understand. The clinical depression I got when I broke my neck is off the wire. When I write about other things I try not to show it and stay perky but I’m like Robin Williams. He was right when he said people can make you feel alone. How true that is.
And I’m so tired of being sick and weak. Can’t go to the Er…I need to but won’t have a ride home.
I am so sorry for burdening you with my problems. So, so sorry. Please forgive me. Please forgive me. I’m sorry. Lord, forgive me too.