YOu are all such wonderful people, and so supportive. I have posted requests for prayer recently in various parts of the forums, and am sure you have responded. But I must ask yet again. I am in the throes of an anxiety attack, brought on by a phobia being triggered two nights ago when my baby came down with a tummy bug. Hubby now has a mild version of it, baby still is having diarrhea. My deep, deep fears are still rearing their ugly heads. Last night I went to confession after mass, and asked father to pray for me at the end, explaining my problem. He invited me behind the screen, held my hands, and we prayed together. Then he laid his hand on my head and prayed some more. Oh, my goodness, how that moved me! What greater way to show Christ’s love! Anyway, I am still dealing with this, going back and forth between hour-long crying jags and holding it together. I have to get it together, I can’t let my girls see me out of control and childlike like this. I revert to a childlike state, in need of someone to ‘take over’, and 'take care of ME". I’ve been through counseling in the past, and will return again (hoepfully this week). My support system (hubby, sister, best friend) do their best, but each of them is either ill or taking care of someone else right now. When I get like this, I daydream of building a huge compound of connected homes where all my loved ones can live together. Sort of a modern version of the not-so-ancient extended family model. I know I must sound like a kook. When I am not like this, you’d be amazed at what a together, responsible person I am. Seeing me like this would blow my co-workers away.
I am so sorry to blither, but I am so desperate for prayers, strong and lots of them! I love you all and am so grateful to God for these forums and all you wonderful people. In spite of my state, I do pray for all of you as well.
Thank you so much in advance.
Mummybee:crying: :gopray: :love: