After reading the thread about non-Catholics and confession, I’m afraid a horrible thought has come into my head and I’m hoping someone knowledgeable about this could put me at ease. Prior to my joining the Church, I did go to confession. I was validly baptized (albeit Protestant) and had completed instruction to make my first holy Communion about 2 years prior, however I had bowed out of actually doing so when the date was set (personal reasons, had nothing to do with my religious beliefs, long story :rolleyes:)
As far as I know, I made only one such confession, mentioned it was my first but no other details, I did not think it was necessary. Now I don’t know if that confession was valid and if my sin was absolved! What’s worse is that I also confessed several times while receiving a “refresher course” prior to receiving our Lord for the first time, I am not sure if that was OK because I was actively preparing to join the Chuch or not. I was not confirmed until a year later on Pentecost, and I have been told that despite receiving our Lord in the Eucharist I was not actually a Catholic until then! That would mean that over a year’s worth of confessions, by a convert, many consumed with past and forgotten sins, including a difficult General confession, were all made as a “non Catholic.” The thought of trying to remember all those sins and repeat all those confessions when I truly acted in all innocence and with total faith in the sacrament both sickens and devastates me. I am already scrupulous and I can’t say how this just break my heart. At the very least.
I have read about validity and liceity (if I’m spelling that right) when it comes to the sacraments, is it possible I was validly absolved but the confessions were illicit? I can’t see how I could have been at fault when I did not know (my pastor did know my situation, obviously, and said nothing about me and confession) but at least I could rest easy knowing my sins really were absolved.
Thank you for ANY help you can provide and please pray for me. I am badly shaken (not my faith, just my nerves.)