Ok, here it is. I HATE the secular part of Christmass and I must admit, it has a stronger presence in my life then the birht of Jesus. That is what I resent so much. I would love to see this as a special celebration for Jesus, but society bombards me with so much commercialism it distorts the time of the year. And what really gets me is calling it 'the holidays' to be politically correct and not offend non Christians with no regards to offending me as a Catholic.
I don't use other people's religious events as an excuse to have a free lunch at work and time off and then tell them not to push their religious beliefs at me. However, they have no problem eating the turkey lunch at work and taking the time off but I am to be silent of my religious beliefs
And to be honest, ever since I was 13, Christmas has been a dreaded event in my home. So phony. My dad wants us to all get along so he can fool himself into believing he has a good loving family without ever having to take responsibility for all the disfunction he has caused.
I HATE receiving gifts because there is all this pressure to gratefull for the presents people picked out. When I was in university, the second I got back to residence I would throw all the stuff away. ( I wasn't even considerate enough to take it to the salvation army). Now that I am older, I feel tremendous guilt that people have spent their hard earned money on something I find totally useless. I am a hard person to buy for and I just wish people never bought me stuff
And the decorations, please. The first time I saw icicle lights, I though they looked like cobwebs. Well actually, in the day when they are off they DO look like cob webs. Not to mention I have always though a tree in a house was a bit pathetic
I could go on for hours about how hard I find this time of the year. And there is just NO getting away from it. Today, I went skating to get out of the house. Well, who was there ? Santa and a singer that was singing a bunch of Christmass songs. Sure the kids where having fun but I really could have done without.
I will be visiting my parents for Christmass but I am taking a train. I have had it with aeroports at Christmas. They are worse than a zoo
So, praying for patience I can make it through the next 3 weeks and then go back to my normal life