So I’ve had a thought that has shaken me pretty soundly. I wouldn’t say that my faith is in danger at the moment by any means, but that this is a very serious concern that I’m hoping someone will be able to explain away.
Okay so God creates all of us equal right? No one among us is greater than any other?
Now, in going through this life we are tested in our willingness to conform our own freely chosen will to that of God. This in essence is a testing of the quality of our soul.
Now if God is the Creator of our souls, how can the quality of any soul be lesser than the quality of any other? Since we are all created equal, the quality of every soul must then be the same. But if the quality of every soul is the same, then shouldn’t every soul either pass or fail the “test” of life in unanimity? Kind of an all or nothing deal? Either we all pass or we all fail, because the qualities of our souls are the same since birth. And if God creates any of our souls as lesser than the others, wouldn’t it be true that he is not all good? As an all good being would not create anyone with less of a chance at passing the test than any other? And if God is not all good then he is not God, for God is greater than anything which can be conceived (according to Aquinas), and because an all good God is greater than one which is not all good, the existence of a God that is less than all good would be impossible, and would therefore disprove the notion of God.
Is it possible that the quality of the soul can decrease or increase over time? If so, can it be said that we are born as equals in quality of soul, but that our experiences in life shape us to the point of shaping our very souls? If this is the case, can it be said that the soul itself is a product of experience, and that we are (in very nearly the literal meaning of the word) nothing but the culmination of our experiences?