Very dark night of the soul

Hey everyone, I could really use some prayers at the moment. I think that I am currently going through an extreme dark night of the soul (even though my entire spiritual life since I’ve become more devout has felt like one). I’m not sure why God is doing what He’s doing right now, and it’s hard to trust Him. After searching farther and farther into it, the heights and ideals of Christian spirituality seem very depressing. Maybe I don’t want great graces. I’ve only been a practicing Catholic for like two years and I’m 17 years old, please don’t tell me this is what it’s going to be like for the rest of my life. I would almost rather not live it. Is that really how someone should live – not wanting to? I’ve always disliked the idea of the dark night of the soul. Why would God make people suffer so much to purge them of worldly attractions that He made and that are “good”? I just want to be happy. I don’t want to be so focused on God that I forget how to live the life that He gave me in a truly human way. Offering my sufferings up feels like a weak plea to make meaning of them. I was so much more happy before I truly started to believe in God. I almost want to just plateau in my growth in faith because progression only seems dreadful and boring. I don’t think I’m made for this. I don’t know how more of this I can do. Lord God, free me from my anxiety. Lord God, give me strength.

I’m sorry if I sound like a lunatic right now, I just have a lot of thoughts that I wanted to get out. I have a history of anxiety, depression, and scrupulosity, and they all seem to be rearing their heads again. I should be seeing a Catholic therapist soon. Hopefully this is not a dark night of the soul and is just a psychological issue.

Please remember me in your intentions tonight. God bless :slightly_smiling_face:

I am very sorry you are going thru this pain. No it will not always be this way.
You sound like a deep thinker i know someone like you.
She was told think less–if you feel depressed and talk to your priest and doctor . Doctors are there for a reason.

God is joy. He is awesome.

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Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

Prayer to Our Lady of Mental Peace

O Lady of Mental Peace,

Mother of Tranquility

and Mother of Hope,

look upon Kanyewest in this time

of weakness and unrest.

Teach her searching heart

to know that God’s Love

for her is unchanging and

unchangeable, and, that

true human love can only

begin and grow by touching

His Love.

Let your gentle Peace -

which this world cannot give

  • be always with her.

And, help her to bring this

same Peace into the lives

of others.

Our Lady of Mental Peace,

  • Pray for us!

Amen.

For Help in Trials

Most holy apostle St. Jude, faithful servant and friend of Jesus, the name of the traitor who delivered your beloved Master into the hands of His enemies has caused you to be forgotten by many. But the Church honors and invokes you universally as the patron of hopeless cases–of things despaired of. Pray for me who feels so hopeless. Make use, I implore you, of that particular privilege accorded to you of bringing visible and speedy help where help is almost despaired of. Come to my assistance in this great need, that I may receive the consolations and succor of heaven in all my necessities, tribulations and sufferings, in particular (Kanyewest), and that I may bless God with you and all the elect throughout eternity. I promise you, O Blessed St. Jude, to be ever mindful of this great favor, and I will never cease to honor you as my special and powerful patron, and to do all in my power to encourage devotion to you. Amen.

Hail Mary,
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world. x10

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.


Lord
Let ourbrother feel the joy of your love …show him joyous Saints and things that uplift. Let him enjoy nature and the beauty if Thy Birth

Amen

Praying for you.

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