Hi everyone, hope you are all well.
My fiance and I have been having some financial issues but now we are both working properly this should resolve itself. I have also been unwell with a mystery illness I have suffered with on and off for nearly ten years. I am finally being reviewed by a specialist consultant.
I need your advice. I am a hard working medical professional as is my fiance. I have been engaged before and my previous fiance’s left me before the wedding day. Usually when I had just gotten used to the idea of being a wife and hopefully a mother .
With my fiance now I cant help but feel that I am failing him, all the time no matter what it is I do. He has his moments of moodiness and not wanting affection as I believe we all do. My problem is that when he feels like this my heart automatically hurts and I begin to fear he is going to leave me, or doesn’t want me anymore.
Is God punishing me for not being good enough before? Am I just not meant to share my life with someone else? Am I not meant to feel the joy of becoming a mother? I have never been unfaithful, I have always been honest. My fiance insists he is just tired, or worried about my health or finances. But I am so scared that the problem yet again is me so much so last night I cried myself to sleep and am sure to do the same thing again tonight.
How can I be a better wife, to this man who I love so deeply and truly?