Hi. So first off I wanna say I know this is scrupulous, I do, but I can’t seem to stop it.
Basically lately (last 6months ish) I’ve become VERY scrupulous on how I pray the rosary and say the rosary intentions and even a bit on how I do the sign of the cross. Basically I try and get it PERFECT. If it seems like I didn’t do the sign of the cross and touch every part or did it too fast or whatever I’ll repeat it, over and over again.
With the intentions I’ll try and make sure I say every syllable PERFECTLY without even a mumble. When I say it ill almost always be like “Nope I messed that up.” and then I’ll repeat it. Over and over again. Now it can take up to 40 minutes to say just the intentions and I don’t have that many! Deep down inside I know God knows what I mean and doesn’t care of I even miss a word or mispronounce or mumble or whatever; but I keep feeling like if I don’t say it exactly right, it won’t count. And I know that’s illogical but I keep feeling that way.
Same thing with the rosary prayers. I just want to say them exactly right with no mistakes at all or no mumbles even. But I’ll still feel I messed up and repeat them either right then or later on separately. I know that I don’t have to say every sylabble methodically like some magic spell, but I keep feeling like if I don’t it won’t be good enough to count. Interesting thing; I used to be more scrupulous on the rosary prayers but now it’s switched to intentions.
So anyway I’m just basically looking for some reassurance that I can pray an imperfect rosary with mumbled intentions and have it count/be OK.
So is it OK to mumble during the decades when I just seem to start mumbling because of the repatition?
Can I say my intentions even very fast and mumbly and have them still count? Is that OK? Will God count them as much as if I basically said it letter by letter?
Will my rosary AND intentions count if I don’t pronounce everything correctly? Or say it fast? Or even don’t make a perfect sign of the cross?
Any hints/advice on dealing with this?
One last thing, this is actually the ONLY thing I’m scrupulous about. Only the rosary and it’s intentions. That’s it. This is the ONLY time I think God/Blesed Mother cares about how perfectly things are said. All other prayers and sign of the crosses are totally normal. And I’m never scrupulous about sinning either. As aster of fact I’m a very “liberal” Catholic.
But yeah, so yeah can I get some help/reassurance on this? It’s REALLY stressing me out to the point that I somewhat dread my daily rosary.