Sorry if there have already been threads covering this topic, but none of them seemed to fit my problem.
I'm 15 at the moment, and ever since I was about 12 I've felt a calling to the priesthood. For a few years since the issue first raised itself, I bottled it up and ran from it, but more recently I've felt as if it may be what I'm meant to do - to be true to both myself and God.
However I recently met a girl who I've got on very well with. We're not dating per se, but we've met up a couple of times and it just feels very right to be with her. She's what I'd describe as a 'cultural Catholic' - baptised but nothing more, and describing herself as 'agnostic', which isn't ideal. On the other hand, one of my best friends has been 'agnostic' for years and has recently become very interested in the Catholic Church and devoting his life to God.
I don't know for sure whether I am meant to become a priest, but I have been praying about it for a long time, and feel a great desire to be a missionary. It feels right - as if it were a part of myself.
I don't feel particularly comfortable going into a relationship with this potential calling to the priesthood. Knowing that the relationship may well come to an end and perhaps cause suffering is a real problem. But, as I said, it feels right to be with this girl, and I feel like I may as well experience these things while I'm young - I don't have to make any permanent decisions for vocations for a long time.
Could anyone please give me some advice on the matter?
Thank you so much in advance.
Sorry about the essay. Whatever happens, I will offer my life up to God. Whatever He chooses to do with me, I know it will be the most perfect path to follow.