Hi everyone, I’m relatively new on here so a brief description of who I am:
My name is Peter, I’m 19 years old and live in London. I was brought up a catholic as part of the Neocatechumenal Way which I strayed from often but have recently found my own place as a catholic and started to grow in faith
Anyway, previously I was in an un-christian, shall we say, relationship in which I failed to remain chaste, mostly because I wasn’t that into the catholic faith but also as a sort of rebellion against what my parents wanted for me.
So that ended around this time last year, in the summer of 2012 I met a beautiful Italian at church who I had met 3 years prior and I knew immediately that I wanted to be with her. I tried everything to get with her but she kept giving me the same answer “I just see you as a friend” ! hahahah It was hard but I prayed a lot and God gave me patience and perseverance to really go for it as I wanted this girl not at all just for the physical attraction I had to her, but because I knew she was a serious catholic and so we would be able to have a true relationship together.
Long story short, I eventually began opening up and showing her my true colors after which she finally succumbed to my attempts and after ‘courting’ since last year July, we finally got officially together on the 23th of November
OK Now to the point at hand, everything has been great with her, we’ve been praying together and really growing in love and faith together. It’s almost been too good to be true but very recently I’ve started getting very anxious and worried about many things in my life such as my future etc. Another thing that I worry is whether I’m being open to God. Sometimes I get scared that if I fully give myself to God in faith that he may call me to a vocation which I don’t want. I feel that I should get married but really can’t shake all these anxious thoughts about ‘maybe this’ or ‘maybe that’ …
Sorry for the extra long post I just really need a word of consolation/support that may help me. Maybe I’m just worrying too much (As my girlfriend often says) and I probably should trust God more but I’m afraid…