I have no idea what kind of man God is calling me to be… Sometimes I feel like being a priest, sometimes I feel like a hermit monk, sometimes I want to be a family man, sometimes I feel like a consecrated single. I have been recently drawn into ascetism and complete detachment.
Yet I have fears and doubts about each of them. I am not particularly into kids, but I am also scared of being a priest. What does God really want from me?
Sometimes I want to be part of the world, sometimes I want to be detached. I am so clueless.
I just have no idea. I have been praying for a long time and I still am confused. I usually spend a long time in front of the Blessed Sacramanent. I am still in university and I am planning to finish my degree first. I have been confused about this for a very long time.