Yup I said it! It's really, really hard.
About a year ago I was really fearful of my vocation whatever it may be. I got over that through lots of prayer. Now, I am totally open to whatever God wants me to do. Priest, religious, marriage, single. He just needs to tell me which one! I just can't figure it out man :shrug:
I like kids, I like teaching Catechism to kids, I would like to be a father of a large family, I would like to be a husband.
but I also love God, want to serve God, want to bring people to Christ, want to give up my life for Him, want to challenge myself in the most radical way possible.
God only knows which of these will bring Him greater glory and save my soul and those around me. I hope one day I can find out :o