OK… so here are our problems…
***Very Basic Background: ***For sometime, I have been feeling a strong call to the priesthood (not necessarily religious or diocesean… just being a priest in general). I am currently in spiritual direction with my priest as my director to help me in discerning.
***Question 1: ***At my last session, the said priest suggested that I get my parents involved actively in my discernment process… So, I sat down with them and went about carefully explaining the feelings I was having. There is a catch though, neither of my parents are extremely Catholic people (my dad is deeply religious… but not really devoutly Catholic in all definitions of the word) and my mom is protestant. They are not opposed to my possible ordination someday, but they feel I should not be occupying myself with serious discernment right now. They say that any serious decisions should be put off until after college. They also say that they would be totally opposed to me going to a college seminary for my College I - IV and are a little nervous about me majoring in philosophy if I were to go to a normal school.
Their advice is not bad per say… I know they are just trying to keep my options open so if I discern out I can go somewhere from there. Its just I don’t think they understand how strongly I do feel called… I have tried discussing it with them, but for one thing trying to explain a vocation is close to impossible, and for another they are not totally excited about discussing these kinds of things… WHAT TO DO???
***Question 2: ***Now for something a little more spiritual… S, as I said I am feeling called to the priesthood… not sure what kind of priesthood. So, I have been looking around at the different options open, diocesean and religious… My spiritual director has suggested that I look into the religious orders given what he has observed in previous sessions. So far I have gotten quite excited with the Benedictines (Mt. Angel Abbey, OR to be exact). They have beautiful spirituality and an amazing way of life that I will always admire. The problems we have with Benedictines are the totallity of the isolation… When I look at what I feel I want to be as a priest, I want to be the kind of person who is a spiritual father to the people, the one who lives among his flock and gives the guidance and sacramental peace that priests have given me throughout my short lifetime. This seems to manifest itself in the diocesean priesthood. Also, I feel like I can’t bring myself to give up all that I was before monastic life… my family, my friends… Yet, I am in wanting for that deep and beautiful liturgy and spirituality that the Benedictines offer. I am also a big supporter and admirer of Tridentine liturgy. I have looked at FSSP but they don’t seem to be right for some reason… Other orders I have interest in are Norbertines and Trappists.
So, your advice on this? I will be meeting with my spiritual advisor sometime in the next week or so and it would be interesting to bring to him some of your ideas for discussion…
Thanks in advance!