I am trying to figure out what to do with my life. I am using the word vocation in a general sense, not necessarily religious vocation, but even lay vocations as well. I am 26 years old and am slowly working towards an Associates degree at a community college. I have Asperger's syndrome which is a form of autism, and I get overwhelmed easily, so many tasks that others might be able to do easily, I am daunted by. It is difficult figuring out anything I am good at. People have told me I would be a good teacher and that I write well, but I don't know if I could handle the pressure involved in these things. All I know is whatever I do, I am going to need a lot of support from the community around me, especially the Catholic faithful. It makes me think of the fact that I want to be supportive of everyone else, that there are others who need me, and I have need of the support of others in order to serve people. It is a beautiful dynamically changing situation. It's just so difficult in this culture to discern how I can make the best impact. Our culture is not really oriented to service to much, but rather to "looking out for number one". I don't even care what I am paid or anything. Even thinking about that sort of thing gets me overwhelmed. I just want to serve. I wish that God would just give me orders, or someone in the church would tell me what to do. I have a spiritual director at my parish whom I meet with to talk frequently, usually once a week. I feel like no one wants or needs my help. I want something good to do for people. I've gotten some suggestions for different things I could do for people, like food pantries, soup kitchens, helping people with groceries, visiting the sick, bringing Communion to homebound parishioners, etc. I'm looking for all the suggestions I can. I just feel like I am getting nowhere though. I get extremely anxious going into new and unfamiliar situations, and I wish I knew someone who could help me just introduce myself to doing service for people, even people I do not know. It's hard to do on my own, because it's like I freeze up, and become mentally paralyzed. I am not sure what I am asking. I guess I don't know any programs around me where I can be introduced into service.