Quoting: Paul theApostle
Im sure i could find much more happiness in life,but im content being single and celibate ,at least when im not constantly tempted with fleshly things
Remember than temptation is not a sin. We are all subject to temptation of some kind or another and struggle against it. If we fail, there is the Sacrament of Reconciliation providing we meet the conditions for a good confession. A good Confession will also strengthen us for the road ahead as well as fully unite us with God and His Church.
Ive never had a proper long term job and dont really know much about vocations
This is the forum to keep on asking any questions you may have re vocation:)
But with Gods help i am getting myself on track and away from a sinful wasteful lifestyle
God bless and keep you. Hopefully we are all on the same road - moving away from our failings towards a life that is Grace filled.
But im happy to help my mom and be there for her,i havent officially applied for carer payment and i dont think i will either at this stage
It sounds as if you are sure of where you are.
I have found a Church called St Joseph the worker and i visit and pray there and pray to St Joseph for guidance and his prayers.
And St. Joseph hears and will answer you - and a powerful advocate he is.
While mom is with dad i have a few hours to myself,and at night also.
Try to use these available times as productively as you can. In ways that you find productive and that have appeal to you.
I dont know where i may be headed in life but i know God gives us purpose and i feel positive about my future anyway and i like to keep walking with God.
Sounds to me as if you are on a sure path. If our parents need us in any way, we can be sure we are on a sure path by meeting that need, even if it should mean that our own desires are frustrated. It does not of necessity mean that all are called in that direction, but since you are happy meeting your mother's needs and are striving to live a life "walking with God" you have nothing to fear, no doubts to trouble you about God's call to you at this time at this particular time in your life.
Since you are single, God's call and vocation to you just now is to the single celibate state and a certain way of life, which is caring for your mother striving to walk with God in all things. However, I am sure you would profit spiritually from a spiritual director or a good talk with a priest by making an appointment.
At some point, your mother may no longer need you and this would be the time to start considering a potential call to another vocation (vocations is from the Latin "vocare" - "to call"). At every point in our life, no matter the circumstances, we can be sure that God is calling us to holiness - some on this path or lifestyle, some on another. We can also be very sure that at every single point in our life no matter the details, God provides all the Graces necessary for us to achieve holiness.
The single celibate state does mean that we remain open to potentially another and different call from God. It may occur, it may not. Certainly, once your mother no longer needs you, then would be the time for sure to consider how God is calling you to live the rest of your life.
Could looking after my mom like this be a Vocation?
At this point in your life, the answer to your question is "Yes, you could consider it your particular call from God, your vocation, at this time".