I am new here and I have been discerning a vocation to religious life for about 3 years. I am 19 years old and am actually entering a community (Poor Clares) in February. I am making this post because I have two questions to ask.
I really love the Poor Clares but ever since I have discerned with them I never really had/have a devotion to Sts. Francis and Clare. I don’t know what it is but I just can’t seem to be close to them or relate to them. I don’t know if that really matters anyway, does it?
Also, on and off in my discernment I always have feelings and desires to get married and raise my own family. And I always think, wow, I am going to miss out in pregnancy and raising my own children. Those were the things that were exciting to me when I was little. And every time my parents or sister brings up religious life and talk about the order I am entering I don’t feel as excited as I think I should. I almost feel anxious and it is like the inside of me feels like it is shying away from it. Does anyone have any advice on this? I just don’t know how to go about this. And I am also sort depressed that this would be happening with just a short month away from entering. I thought I would be more excited. Please pray for me.