I am trying to figure out if God is calling me to marriage. I have a deep desire to get married and to have a family.Its a very deep desire of mine. However, sometimes I feel guilty for thinking this. Furthermore, after discerning Religious Life, I have realized that I would find it very difficult for me to live religious vows. I don’t feel called. I am just very confused as to how to recognize God’s voice. And, aside from how I feel or think about he matter, I have thousands of dollars in student debt and I deal with food allergies, anxiety and unpredictable bought of depression. Nevertheless, sometimes I feel so guilty for not wanting to be a nun. I just don’t know what to think anymore.I don’t want to be a religious sister and the logistics don’t really work out (outside of a miracle). Could Satan be trying to mess with my brain?
ps. I don’t have a spiritual director because I can’t find one around my area.