I have often felt the pull to work with the church. Sometimes I am quite certain I gave up my calling because when I was younger I wanted children and family and even married a man who refused to have anything to do with my church.
I am now a single mother and lately have felt the calling more strongly. I have strayed at times but was always yanked back sometimes I would argue with God because I wanted something else but being away from him was always to much for me so I would throw up my hands and say alright take from me what you don’t want in my life and bang he did.
I have felt the need to be closer as the years have passed and imperfectly have tried to be obediant. I know that I have to waite till my children are grown but my question is would I even be excepted?? I know that I am doing what god wants me to do now its just I want to be closer.