Hi guys! Last night in RCIA we discussed Vocations/Gifts - pretty much the group made it sound like these two things are the SAME thing so I'm going to ask my question in this forum.
Here's the deal. I have one of those 'gifts' that is obvious. Everyone can see it and everyone wants to use it. I play the piano. Any church I've ever been in has ended up getting me to play for them.
The problem is this.
Last night at RCIA someone commented that your vocation/gift is your PASSION. It's something you love doing...
I hate playing the piano for church (and for any setting where people will be singing along - it's just not my style of piano and not the music I enjoy). I love playing on my own, but even after YEARS of playing for church I absolutely despise playing for that setting. The mere thought of playing for a congregation makes me really unhappy. I do it because I don't know how to say no, but I've never enjoyed it and I sincerely doubt I ever will.
Here's the flip side. I love singing. I LOVE singing but because I play the piano everyone assumes that's my gift and what I should be doing so I never get the opportunity to indulge in the 'gift' that I DO love.
Can this really be my 'gift' if I hate it so much?
So what happens when your gift is something overtly obvious but you hate it? Is it really what you're called to do?
Any thoughts and/or similar experiences?