I have been quite sinful under the eyes of the Church. Although I have repented and went to Confession several times in pain about my sexual sins, I still feel unworthy to make a personal, private vow of chastity.
I plan to help others without getting married throughout my life and join a secular order. I am physically disabled and thus I cannot join a religious order given my genetic disabilities. Thus, I want to make a private vow of chastity and remain single.
I’m still open to the idea of marriage but I doubt that anyone wants to marry me because I’m disabled.
Is making a private vow of chastity still possible for me?