Thankyou to everyone for their comments/answers. They are appreciated, so very much.
It has been about 3 months… A little over. I absolutely see that it shouldn’t be easy to just jump in and I have considered that, perhaps, Father is watching me. To see if I do indeed show up and show that I’m serious, no matter what. Which I undoubtedly am.
I did go to a Salvation Army Store, here, in Perth, Aus, and bought myself a dress shirt, which I have worn the last 2 weeks. I am planning on cutting off my hair as I read in my Bible that long hair on a man is disgraceful. I have no problem with that or anything that I am required to do, by God. I stopped marijuana when I started going to Mass, which was the last vestige of my drug use. Not because I necessarily thought it was wrong, but I believed that using it, definitely, showed a lack of Faith… I used it for medical issues, not pleasure, but I was prepared to show God that I know He can cure me of those issues and He has. Also I read about having nothing to do with things that demons are concerned with and that clinched it for me… plus “obeying the Law”.
Thankyou everyone for welcoming me. Thankyou for your input, it is a relief to know that God is accepting of me, though I’ve not yet taken my “vows” and been baptised/confessed/communion. Since my “reconciliation”, (such as it is, thus far), I have experienced a joy that I have never felt before. I have also experienced A LOT of hurdles and roadblocks, but none that could ever change my mind about the Lord and I was expecting them, anyway. Again, God said to me “just keep on going. feel the pain and love me anyway…regardless.”
Praise be to God and to His Son, Lord Jesus Christ.
God bless you all. Have a beautiful Advent and Christmas.