Something strange happened to me today during Mass. Actually, this is the second time this has happened to me. Please let me explain:
After a long period of being in mortal sin and not going to confession but still going to Mass I made a firm committment to amend my life 2 weeks ago. I went to confession on Saturday 2 weeks ago and then attended Mass alone on Sunday. During Mass, the Our Father specifically, I felt very weak, lightheaded and shaky. During Consecration I began to shake uncontrollably and started sweating profusely. I thought I was going to faint! I left just as Communion was starting because I thought I would pass out if I went up. I made it home okay and got better afterward.
Today at Mass with my wife and daughter the same thing happened! But this time it happened just as we started the Confiteor. Same exact symptoms. This time I left my wife and daughter and went into the narthex to sit on a bench. I was in terrible shape Very weak, lightheaded and shaky. I stayed there during the Mass and could listen and say the prayers but did not stand or kneel. Just sat there. When Communion started I briskly, but weakly, walked up the aisle and joined my wife and daughter. I felt ill when I received Communion and immediately exited the church.
My question is, was I wrong to receive Holy Communion when I wasn’t feeling good? Did I sin because I didn’t fully participate in the Mass yet received the Eucharist and then immediately left?
I think these two events occurred because I didn’t eat before Mass. I’ve been working out a lot lately and am thinking my body needs more sugars/salts now. It felt like low blood pressure (hypotension). But my concern is whether or not I sinned in receiving Communion while this condition was in progress.