Amazing how you describe the three phases of temptation and at least some of the four stages to resist it.
Phase one: suggestion. “The proposal to some evil. Our imagination or our mind represents to us in a more or less vivid manner the attraction of the forbidden fruit.”
Phase two: pleasure. “Instinctively our lower tendencies are drawn towards the suggested evil and a certain pleasure is experienced. This pleasure does not, as long as the will refuses to consent to it, constitute a sin.”
Phase three: consent. “If on the contrary, the will delights in the pleasure, willingly enjoys it and consents to it, the sin is committed.” Where is this in your story? For this is the “deliberate consent”, a necessary condition for any sin to be mortal!
Now, about the four stages:
Prevention. “Prevent the oncoming of temptations. Flee from occasions of sin.”
This wasn’t your fault, you weren’t quite looking for trouble As someone in the same boat, so to speak, I know that patient and serene training in guarding our eyes leads to marvelous improvement. The more we train, the easier it becomes to instinctively keep our eyes from indulging on a forbidden fruit…
Resistence. “Resist temptations when facing it. Walk away.”
Perseverance. “Occupy your mind with something else in order to overcome any thoughts”.
Thanksgiving. “Once the storm has passed, humble yourself and thank God.”
I guess you’ll get a chance during Mass Remember that nobody can be free from such things entirely, at least not immediately…as long as you are disgusted by sin, and do not consent to indulge in any pleasure, there is no mortal sin. Consent is a very specific moment. One in which you clearly tell yourself: “this is wrong” and then you reply “I do not care, I want this” and give up the fight entirely. If that isn’t there, don’t worry and just be more at peace. Padre Pio described the adversary as a bad dog on a chain: if you see or hear his spirit, it doesn’t mean you fell prey to him Just dislike it and don’t get close, and all will be fine - by God’s grace.
One more think worth mentioning:
That’s typical, so typical of the spirit against Christ. To strike when we least expect it and when it hurts more. Strong temptations (and even sometimes, falls) shortly after confession is something I am acquainted with - especially with the very same sins we confessed. Also, I used to struggle a lot - I mean a lot - after my Christian initiation…guess when? In the few hours immediately after Holy Communion!! And still today I sometimes get into arguments with loved ones…in the few hours after Holy Mass! Just don’t be too worried, because someone is laughing at you and me, but we must keep calm and we’ll have the last laugh Don’t forget 1 Cor 6:3: “Know ye not that we shall judge angels?”