My scruples are nagging me. My dad and I planned to go to a Sunday Mass at the college I’m going to before their Freshman Preview day, but we missed it and now I’m worried I’ve broken the first commandment.
Here’s the story:
We got up and ready and went down to catch the shuttle bus to the airport. We missed the first shuttle by like one minute and waited for the next one. We got to the airport and planned to take their train system to the New Jersey Transit train system. However, one of the trains we needed to ride was down for about 30min! We connected to New Jersey Transit via Jamaica station (I know none of you wil know these places, but I just don’t want to use ambiguities). We rode the train to Secacus Junction and missed the train to South Orange because of that darn airport shuttle train!! We finally got to South Orange right when Mass ended (about 9:30)
There was another one at ten, and I suggested going to it, but my dad said no becasue we “came here just for this day and we can’t miss it”. I felt guilty that I was listening to a speech rather than going to Mass. There was also one at 6pm that we could have gone to and I suggested that, but my dad said no we have to go to the airport so as not to miss our flight.
The flight was cancelled anyway, so we could have gone to the Mass (in South Orange, New Jersey) but we were at the airport (New York JFK). I feel bad that I didn’t go to Mass. Does God understand that I wanted and tried to go? I feel like He has a right to be upset because I could have gone (especially to the 8 o’clock one) but I was listening to speeches and touring the college (which was the whole point of the trip). Financially, we couldn’t rent a car because we couldn’t really afford the trip, but my parents really wanted to go out to NJ so we could see it. I understand that, but I feel like I put a college visit ahead of my soul. Advice?