about 3 weeks ago, i got off my medication because i could not afford the co-pay (it was a healthy sized dose of Effexor). i was not able to taper off of it, i had to quit cold turkey. the withdrawl symptoms were pretty rough-i could hardly work, even do things around the house. i was in a state of misery. day 3 or 4 i started seeing some strange things.
in my line of vision, i saw about 3 white orbs (?) up top on my left, and 5 on my bottem right (neither were in my perifial vision). they appeared to be about 2 feet away. they circled my vision and were gone. my husband did not see any of it. we were in walmart the last time and most prominent time. i had this happen twice in one day. inbetween seeing these white things, i saw what looked like a blue tracer to my right in my right perifial vision; when i was looking over to my right i caught a glimps of this blue tracer.
i wrote it all off as a withdrawl symptom of the medication. the other night i was talking to my friend about medications and told her what was happening. she said she thought they were angels (the white orbs) and a “spiritual guide” (the blue thing).
might i note that i do not have skitzophrenia and the effexor was not treatment for that. i’ve never had visuals of anything that would lead me to believe that i have skitzophrenia (my husband has it… sympathy pains? i dont think so). ]
also, ever since, i feel someone standing over me on my right side. i know we all have these feelings from time to time like someone is there… but its EVERY DAY. im HOPING im not going insane. it isnt an eerie presence. its just there. last night i felt heat on my right side of my body. i had my husband feel in the area to the right of me and he did not feel it. i did, at the same time he didnt.
im sure some of you think i might be loosing it, but it is what it is. i am just wondering if anyone knows any explanation for all of this.
it hadnt even entered my mind that they were angels. i have not seen anything like it since. maybe the day after or two, but nothing as profound as the one day. the feeling is still there, a handful of times a day. i swear something poked me in the side during one of my early morning meetings for work one sunday. i actually turned to the right to see who did it and no one was near me.
i hope im not loosing it…
and i hope that if it is angelic, that it isnt any dark forces…