I am a Catholic man and all my life I have considered myself to be straight having no sexual attraction towards men whatsoever. However, I was beginning to wonder what might count as homosexual tendencies. One time saw a man and thought, “Wow this guy looks handsome. Whatever girl would have him would be lucky.” I never really thought about it because I didn’t feel sexually turned on by him or anything like that. I even felt a slight temptation from the devil inside of me after I saw him urging me to think about how good he looked. And one time when I was about 9 years old I was watching a movie and I saw a man on it and he seemed pretty attractive to me. Again I didn’t feel anything sexual towards him but I did admire him. Around this time I was just starting to get interested in girls and my sexual feelings were starting to develop. The feelings I was starting to feel with girls were not the same as the “attraction” that I had towards the man in the movie. In 19 years, those are the only two times that I can say I actually felt an “attraction” to someone of the same sex if it counts as one anyway. All my life I have never really worried about it. But lately I have been praying and discerning whether or not God wants me to join the priesthood and I read that one of the impediments to ordination is same sex tendencies, even if you ignore them and don’t act on them, it still is an impediment. When I read this I thought, “Uh oh!” I’m 19 now and have been discerning the priesthood since I was about 16. I always thought that if you’re born gay, straight, bisexual, or transgender, you’d know it from early on. Again I have never felt myself being anything other than straight, but these two incidents that happened in my life are making me question otherwise.
PS. Sorry if I put this thread in the wrong column, I wasn’t quite sure which one to put it under.