I have a very difficult issue going on. I was involved in an inappropriate relationship fifteen years ago. I repented of my sins, have a very active prayer life, was going to many parish functions, and then someone in my former parish found out about it, word got to my current parish priest, and now he wants me out. He not only avoids me, he will put a paper up to his face to avoid looking at me. He had a sermon one day that pertained to my situation. He is a monsignor, very arrogant and bombastic. Talking with him is not an option. I went to confession one day and told him about my past, which I had previously confessed, and he told me that people will never accept you, you need to move. We have lived in this area for 35 years. The scandal is out all over. I have nowhere else to go to Mass in about a 50-mile radius from where I live. My family, friends, and acquaintances all know what a dreadful soul I am.
Should I stop going to Mass entirely since this upsets the priest so much? I have been going to other parishes but do get recognized. I understand all about “consequences” for my sins, but there is no peace anymore to be had at the area Catholic churches. People are not very forgiving. I have learned one thing, if you ever wonder if gossip goes on amongst the clergy, it certainly does. I’m not blaming them. I take full responsibility for my actions. I just do not know what the Church expects of me at this time.