I'm having a hard time with this discernment thing. I'm 28 years old. I've never felt a strong calling to anything except a general desire to serve. At one point in my life I thought perhaps I would make a good minister because I am actually quite charismatic in person (I'm the girl who convinced an atheist, an openly homosexual non-denominational Christian and an anti-Catholic Christian to come to my Confirmation - not to toot my own horn but just as an example of my personality - I kind of draw people in like a moth to a flame and I don't really even know how I do it, I just do it), of course now I'm Catholic so I realize being a 'minister' isn't a possibility. As a child I was what you might call a force to be reckoned with when it came to Christianity, I spoke my faith loudly and confidently and people usually listened, but I lost my way.
Anyway. These days I don't feel particularly called to anything! Single Life? Fine. Marriage? Okay. Sister? Sure why not? I feel completely neutral towards all the vocations, with no particular leaning towards any. Mentally the idea of dedicating my life to the service of God alone appeals but I feel no emotional or even spiritual draw at this point.
Now, I realize that I've only JUST been confirmed so there's no huge rush but on the same hand I've always been this way. I've never felt any strong pull towards anything.
I suppose all I can do is pray but I'm curious to know if there are others who've been here and where you ended up? Right now I find the current state of things very confusing because I'm not sure how I should proceed. Patience! It's a virtue I haven't fully developed yet!
Are there any specific vocation prayers that anyone knows that might be helpful? I'm not even sure how to pray about this one? I'm just getting back into prayer (well, it's only been one year since I returned) and the study of God's word and all that so I suppose I shouldn't even be thinking about vocations yet but I can't help but feel a little bit lost.
I suppose a big start would be to just start reading this vocations forum... So I'll get right on that. :D
Thanks for listening guys. To summarize my questions are:
Does anyone else feel no particular draw to any vocation?
Has anyone who struggled with not feeling called to any vocation found their vocation?
Are there any vocation specific prayers that could help?