I go to a great EF mass with another person who has the same disorder. It can often become uncomfortable, although it is not as intense as going to a grocery store or a someplace of that nature. I have tried to go to the parish assemblies after mass, but find it almost impossible. I take medication for this, but it does not always work. This is when I have a difficult time in leaving the house, or get to Mass.
I often feel like I have committed a mortal sin, yet I know it is not in my power when it happens, therefore I know this cannot be so. Dispite this, it does tend to get the scruples demon in my mind working harder and I end up being more depressed by it, which only seem to be alleviated by my physical attendence at Mass. I do try to “attend” mass by internet ( I don’t own a television) but have very limited sites that offer the TLM and or the OF Mass, respectively. Perhaps others can help me with finding sites that do.
I have attempted to have a priest administer confession and communion at my home, but they (any priest of any parish) explain that it is too dangerous and that it can only be done in cases of extreme unction (which predominately occur in hospitals). I knew a time when this was not so, but can understand why it must be today, considering how priests seem to be common targets of scandals.