[quote="ljubim, post:2, topic:197839"]
Make an appointment with your priest!!! It does feel like that, I was in mortal sin for a while and it was quite awful :( But if we weren't sinners, we would not need a Savior. Just make it right as soon as you can, go for a plenary indulgence, and deepen your love for God so there's much less chance of this happening again.
thanks! :) I'll try to do that. What concerns me is that even after Confession, the effects of this sin still tend to remain in my mind.... I find it difficult to love God, and then I get afraid of receiving Communion, though this is what I need most. Two weeks ago God revealed His mercy to me and healed me, but sadly since then I fell back into the same state!
[quote="Dorothy, post:3, topic:197839"]
We mustn't let our weaknesses get us down. They help us to think humbly of ourselves and realize that we have to depend on the Lord for all things.
We need to embrace our weaknesses, admit them, and lean on the Lord for all we need.
It was St. Paul who said (and I'm not sure if I am quoting it exactly correct) "When I am weakest, then I am strongest".
When we admit our weaknesses and do not let them get us feeling "down", just surrender to the Lord and He will be our strength.
that is VERY true! I was thinking a while ago, how all this is teaching me more about my need to depend on God, and to trust Him and distrust myself.
[quote="LauraDymphna, post:4, topic:197839"]
First, I want to say, yes, go to confession. make an appointment with your priest. Or find another parish to go and confess your sins. Secondly, you are stating somethings that concern me, as a catholic. Guilt is what draws us in to repentance, however, to torment ourselves, with our own sin, comes from the enemy. Remember two things, #1, you committed a mortal sin, #2 you have the full intent to go to confession. These are things God recognizes and understands. While this is not an excuse not to go, there is no need to torment your own soul, or tell yourself how horrible of a person you are for committing this sin. Mortal sin is a heavy burden. The fact that you do feel guilty, says a great deal about your character as a Christian. Secondly, until you get to confession, pray a daily rosary, and pray for a good confession. and do not forget that you are Loved by the Great I AM. Also, pray for the daily spiritual communion. One other thing. Try attending a daily mass, grab your priest afterward, and say, "hey Father, I need to confess something." Any good priest will take time to help. :)
I know what you mean about guilt, and what I've been experiencing today has been drawing me to repentance, but sometimes I do fall back into what you described. I think it's knowledge of my overall sinfulness that is discouraging me but I no longer feel discouraged when I think of God's power and grace, and how this is only proving to me why I can't save my own soul. It's incredible how merciful Jesus is and that He is able to save us from such misery.. from any misery! I really need to trust Him. Sometimes I wonder if I'm making this up because it's so good, almost too good to be true that God would be so loving to us. But - then I remember the Church teaching and "Divine Mercy in My Soul" and I can see that yes, this is our Savior! :) I feel like lately God has been trying to get me to rely on His grace more and to trust in Him alone, and to want to do His will alone. It's been several months of purification... and I've only progressed around 1 percent I think, lol! It would take a whole lifetime and more to purify the soul.