I’ve experienced this a couple times, in my seven years of knowing Christ. I’ve had powerful experiences of feeling God’s love aside from those two, but really just those two experiences approach the extremes of what you’re talking about.
The first experience I had like that was when I was talking to the Lord, and I was doubting the reality of such experiences. I told the Lord that I had a hard time believing this was possible, and the Lord answered by consuming me with the Spirit to an incredible, exquisite degree. I found myself weeping. The intensity of the inner fire was overwhelming, and I knew I could not have mentally created it for myself. It was way too powerful, and it had been such an unbelievable surprise! It was an excellent, incredible gift from God for that moment.
The other time was later on, and I’d rather not talk about it. A bit personal. But anyway, I know what you’re talking about, and it is indeed wonderful.
I urge you to read the Bible, though, and ask God to illuminate it to your understanding. I also have had many experiences of how unsafe it is to rely upon spiritual experiences without the proper safeguards. Evil spirits can masquerade as God very successfully, and they like to do it. I’ve been led astray before by seeking after experience instead of after the one who gives them.
You said you’re not a Christian. I know that God can speak and reveal himself to non-Christians, no problem. He definitely does that- it’s in the Bible. But the fact that you’re not a Christian suggests that there are certain invaluable spiritual defenses that you are likely lacking. I strongly urge you to get safe. I don’t want to scare you off of your experience, but instead to experience God in safety.
It’s crucial, of course, to first find out who God is. Please read the New Testament, praying to God to reveal the truth of it to you and praying that he will open your mind and heart to his words concerning it. I believe that God will do so.
If you find out that God is Jesus Christ, you will have a whole load of new information in the Bible to learn about the God you experience and about what his will is and who he is. Please tell me how it goes, and don’t forget also to pray for God’s protection.
I’m very serious about all of this protection and safety stuff. There are such terrible dangers, and they are so real. Evil spirits can destroy people’s relationships with other people, can delude them with webs of lies, and can even kill people. I’ve seen them try to do these things firsthand, and their powers extend far beyond what I’ve seen. So please, the spiritual realm is so broad and mysterious, and there are so many powerful things out there, and many of them are unfriendly. Just be cautious, praying for safety as you proceed and for spiritual discernment from God.
And get to know God better! That will be one of the great wonders before you, if you do read the New Testament. The scripture has been the centerpoint of the religious experiences of countless Christian mystics. Knowing who God is, knowing about him and learning his will and his ways, his words and deeds in this world, will be amazing to you. It is deeply important to not only rely on the experience of God, but to get to know him deeply and intimately as well, to learn who he is and how he has revealed himself.
May God bless you in a thousand ways!