I know this is more of a term that Evangelical Christians use more than Catholics, but what exactly does a “personal relationship with Jesus” mean? (… I’m pretty sure I’ve never had one…)
When I think of a “personal relationship,” I think of conversation, dialogue, actually seeing someone face-to-face, etc. As far as I know, most people aren’t regularly conversing with a Booming Voice Of God in their heads, right? (For lack of better way to describe it … ) What do people mean when they say “God’s voice told me XYZ” or “Jesus is my best friend”?
I hope my descriptions don’t come off as disrespectful (though I’m kind of socially inept so they inevitably will offend someone).
I’ve always envied people of faith, especially how it seems to come so natural to many. I really wish I had that (and it saddens me that the view of most religions is that my lack-of or struggle with faith is my own fault, and I’m eternally damned as a result.)
Basically where I stand now is that I believe God exists, and I believe that all I’ve encountered of Catholic moral philosophy is dead-on 100% right. To put this in perspective, about a year ago, I still considered myself agnostic, and pro-“choice,”… pro- all sorts of other things. But I don’t really think I can’t get past the point I’m at now. Just as one example, there are all sorts of things in the Bible that disturb me. Don’t even get me started on all the things people are supposed to be stoned to death according to the OT. (I kind of think stoning people to death is really poor behavior, but what do I know?)
I feel my main issues are with revelation in general. I understand the argument that really very little history we know has not been told to us from other people, and in that way we accept it “on faith.” But over a billion people believe in the teachings of Islam and the Koran, and there are over a billion Christians too. So, sheer numbers can’t determine what major religion is correct (if any), and we certainly don’t have a consensus.
How does one get from a belief in objective moral truth and God’s existence to Christianity?
So much for a cohesive first post.
Thanks for your help, and apologies for all the rambling…