I understand that not everyone will be able to (experience visions) regardless of their devotion, but apparently I used to have long conversations with “something” as an toddler, and I don’t have any mental illnesses, so unless I was talking to the wall or something else, it seems that I have it in me. Another incident happened later in my life (at about 8-10) where I referred to myself by a specific name which meant that “my life had been spared”. This statement is important because my life actually was spared, however I didn’t realize this was true until years later. After that event though, all “supernatural” activity completely stopped. Why is this the case? How come as a child I knew all of these things but now I’m standard? Christians who don’t even know me say that I can be a powerful instrument for Jesus, yet I lost the very Heavenly support that would’ve indicated that. What happened or changed? Even after these events, I praised and followed Jesus, even to my own detriment–so it’s not like I “matured” out of devotion or belief. I still believed and I still loved.
I’d also like to mention that I have no recollection of my early conversations, only that they happened (because my parents told me). I do, however, remember the incident regarding my name. Why wouldn’t God will for me to remember the first event (assuming it was supernatural)? Also, why would God seemingly give me a gift, then remove it or suppress it for seemingly no reason? Before I used to have all of these great interactions with God, and now I cannot even get a prayer answered. I used to speak to the Angels, yet “suddenly” I can now only hear the sounds of men.
Is it something I did? Am I being Job’d by God and the Devil? Is there anything I can do to regain my lost connection to Jesus? Please pray that this gift isn’t gone for good. It has a really personal place in my life, and to permanently lose it would be catastrophic. There are so many things I want to talk to my Guardian Angel about (in this life). Many prayers that I wish I could see answered etc. So how can I nurture this gift (if I still have it) and possibly reignite it to it’s former glory? Thank you.
– God Bless.