Greetings and Blessings to All,
I have felt a strong call from God to become His priest. I have no doubt of this call, of His will for me and for my life. I am currently pursuing it with all my heart and soul. I have been meeting with my vocation director and my own parish priest, and have been enriching my prayer life and involvement in my parish.
My only anxiety is that I will for some reason be refused into the Church, refused into seminary. I have some hurdles and barriers to overcome and am working diligently on overcoming them. I am pursuing this call with all of my being and spirit, knowing beyond a doubt that it is God's will for me.
What if it doesn't work out? Would God call me with such strength and urgency only to deny me? I know that my heart would be broken if my Church found me unworthy. I want desperately to follow this call and fulfill God's will in service and love to His Church and His people.
This is the only doubt and worry that keeps me awake at night. What do men do when the Church refuses them to the priesthood? Perhaps I'm worrying for no reason, perhaps I'm plagued by worries from forces that cause me unease in order to cause me to waiver. I know that I would be an energetic force of good for the world in the priestly capacity. I know that I would be extremely happy and joyful in that role.
I simply worry that my Church will find me unworthy.
I would like to know how men deal with refusal, with blocks to their path.
I would appreciate any wisdom, guidance, prayers, and encouragement.
And God Bless You All