Help! I'm afraid my question may be more pastoral than doctrinal but I fear no priest has time to deal with my concerns. The primary one of which is that, after years of prayer, I cannot bring myself into agreement with many Catholic beliefs, especially those related to sexuality. While I am a heterosexual male, the Church's teachings on abortion and homosexuality could be considered as irrelevant to me, but I cannot believe. I'm sorry. I really am. And I have no intention of arguing against the magisterium. And I simply cannot vote "prolife" while I have doubts on that issue and against every other moral and social justice which I hold dear (and which I have learned from the church!).
My question is, what becomes of me? Can I somehow be a "Catholic" by following the liturgy of the hours, centering prayer, and such and just keep my mouth shut on doctrine? Or am I lost? I have studied Catholic doctrine, have a bachelor's degree in pastoral ministry and completed the Ignatian Retreat before these doubts became front and center. I have considered Protestantism as a solution but feel that the church "has the words of everlasting life." Am I lost? Is it time for me to check out Buddhism?
Please help. Do I have any options?