What if I haven’t done enough? Not been good enough? Not cared enough? Didn’t pray as I should. Wasn’t kind enough? Didn’t focus during Mass enough?
Surely it can’t be as black and white as dying in or out of mortal sin? I know this is church teaching but only sometimes it is obvious when we commit mortal sin but can we really ever know?
St Therese of Avila hadn’t committed a mortal sin but was shown her place in Hell due to her lukewarmness.
How many of us could end up like that? Kind of like a marriage ending not because either one did something bad to destroy it but it just rotted away and they split up?