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Well, I am discerning a vocation as a Third Order Dominican, and lately I am very distracted in prayer and I am filled with overwhelming thoughts that I am being indulgent by spending time in prayer and study, that I shouldn't "need" to do these things, and that perhaps people who are too religious are judgmental extremists and it's better to be more moderate in one's faith.
I am also filled with doubt- that perhaps I would make a poor Dominican so I should just give up and just go to Mass on Sunday and that's it.
These thoughts don't feel "right" to me- they are accompanied by a tremendous sense of unrest.
I do have a very busy schedule and two young children, and part of my worry is that I will take too much time away from my (part-time) job and the care of my children to do things that are indulgent- however, all around me do report that the prayer and study do seem to improve the way I function.
I have just recently begun to attend daily Mass, which I know in my soul God wants me to do. Recently, I had very ugly dreams that could only be interpreted as retaliation by the evil one. The devil does everything he is permitted to do in order to separate us, distance ourselves from the love of God. What you are doing not only benefits your soul, but the souls of others, including your children. We all undergo tests of our faith. Please have peace in knowing that you are doing the right thing.