I am very scrupulous and am constantly thinking I have blasphemed the Holy Spirit (physically) even though it’s likely I haven’t. I am always really anxious thinking about it. A priest told me that a mortal sin is committed deliberately to offend God. I have never wanted or intended to blaspheme at all and it’s only when I have bad thoughts and worry about it that I think I have actually said something.
I want to receive Holy Communion tomorrow, but I’m not sure if I can. I don’t even know if I did say anything, is receiving Holy Communion in mortal sin only a mortal sin when you clearly know you are in mortal sin?
And please could you explain in detail about the third condition for mortal sin, about full deliberate consent?
I saw that for the third condtion of mortal sin about full consent, it said the sinner reflects and wants to do it and wants to offend God. I have never wanted to deliberately offend God with blasphemy. I have been in a lot of anxiety over the last few weeks and I only seem to think I’ve said things when I worry about possible past blasphemies and when I have bad thoughts etc.
So if I have blasphemed, was it full consent? I want to go to Holy Communion tomorrow, but I don’t know if I can.