I am growing to see that the “deposit of faith” is very important… this faith we have been given is a gift, and must be protected from contamination, because a lie can be believed just as much as the truth. Yes, I must go before the LORD, and He will lead me, but I have been pondering joining the Catholic Church, even though I do not believe in everything they teach simply because they are resolute in their stand against sin and full devotion to Jesus Christ… I am tired of being tossed to and fro with every passing wind. I do not trust the teachers here in America of so-called Christianity, because there are many very dangerous doctrines they teach, acting as if heaven were here on earth, and as if we should all be millionaires, etc., is their portion in this life or the next? Why did Paul say, “that which was gain to me I count as loss for the cause of Christ” ? Many things which the world deems as praiseworthy are abominations to God because it besets a person in their walk with Christ. A child needs a father. A spiritual child needs a spiritual father. I do not want to be left to believe whatever I think the truth is as being true - I’ve seen (well-intentioned) people preaching with “fire” something completely non-biblical (like the rapture). Why doesn’t the “Lord” (they say they know Him) tell them that they are wrong? Maybe the answer is that they do not truly know how to follow the Lord, and many times they mistake their own brains’ thoughts for the Lord’s voice - which is a very dangerous thing. In this case, you can twist the words of Scripture around to fit anything you think it should (to a certain extent) which could cause people to err from the true faith which produces a holy people, zealous for good works, dedicated to marrying Jesus. The problem of following my own thoughts instead of the Lord wouldn’t be a problem if I had a spiritual father who walked in a faith that I could trust (not a johnny-come-lately) that could correct me about certain things. For that, I appreciate the Catholic Church, but I do not like the “extra” wierd doctrines, which are also not proven in the Bible, no matter how many ways they try to see it (just like the western Christianity teachers) the Spirit of God spoke the Scripture (Old Testament), but other spirits also speak words, as well; if it is in disagreement with Scripture, it is not God’s Spirit, and there is only one other kingdom it can come from if it doesn’t come from God - from satan. I do not trust my own understanding, as I see anyone can convince themselves of anything - and people using “the Secret” can bypass the laws of God by falsely prophesying (witchcraft) the thoughts of their mind. Just because what you speak comes to pass DOES NOT make it from God. No matter even if an angel comes and speaks to me, or a sign is shown, if it is intended to make me break Scripture and worship some other God, it is NOT God; I do not follow signs, I follow truth - signs follow ME. I am not a mindless beast that needs signs, I have intelligence, and that is where God wants to meet me - with words.
1IF A prophet arises among you, or a dreamer of dreams, and gives you a sign or a wonder,
2And the sign or the wonder he foretells to you comes to pass, and if he says, Let us go after other gods–gods you have not known–and let us serve them,
3You shall not listen to the words of that prophet or to that dreamer of dreams. For the Lord your God is testing you to know whether you love the Lord your God with all your [mind and] heart and with your entire being. 4You shall walk after the Lord your God and [reverently] fear Him, and keep His commandments and obey His voice, and you shall serve Him and cling to Him. 5But that prophet or that dreamer of dreams shall be put to death, because he has talked rebellion and turning away from the Lord your God, Who brought you out of the land of Egypt and redeemed you out of the house of bondage; that man has tried to draw you aside from the way in which the Lord your God commanded you to walk. So shall you put the evil away from your midst.
Signs point people to Jesus - what then? I find the western church utterly lacking in the necessary truths to bring the Christian to full maturity of the faith… whereas in the Catholic church, there is 2,000 years of teaching, of questioning, of practice in bringing saints from being babies to full maturity. I desire to walk in maturity; I don’t want to be a “baby” any longer. You have there the Franciscans, you have nuns, and many other vocations: people who walk closely (in fidelity) with Jesus and will not be tossed with “every wind of doctrine”, and who, in the day of testing, will stand, and afterward, receive a full reward. All I want is to withstand the time of testing that is coming to try “all those who dwell upon the earth” and to be found standing in faith when Jesus Christ returns Luke 18:8. I want to know God’s ways and walk in them - and I am afraid of my lack of understanding of them.