My best friend since childhood is a black woman. She is stunningly gorgeous and always had her pick of guys Even now that we are both well into middle age and are both on the plumper side of life, she turns heads when she walks into a room.
Sadly, I also saw the other side of things. When good Christian families freaked the heck out when their white sons starting dating a black girl. I still cry when I remember some of those events.
Anyway, I understand a tiny bit more than some other folks might. (especially in the USA today where bigotry is almost celebrated) . Recently I was in the cosmetics aisle of a store.
A group of 3 young ladies were in the aisle, around 12 or 13 years old, doing the “teens hanging out at the mall” sort of thing. They were all of color, two were honey colored, the other had darker skin. This girl pointed at one of the advertising posters and said “Ewwww, she is so BLACK” and her friends joined in.
My jaw dropped, that was a poster of a model, a stunning woman. Our world has made these little girls see dark skin as ugly!
Some words about beauty fell out of my face, they ended up helping me finish my shopping so I guess they at least thought I was not a crazy old woman.
Anyway, you are confronting more barriers.
There are some groups that might be of interest, maybe there is a chapter of KofPC hear you? https://www.kofpc.org/