I’ve recently returned to the faith after two decades of living a selfish, secular life. I had recently hit a low point in my life, was full of despair and misery and began to look into the teaching of the Church and what it means to be Catholic. I began to pray for guidance, and learned to pray the Rosary (although I’m not good at it).
One evening while I was kneeling alone, praying the Rosary, meditating on the mysteries and on what a wretched sinner I have been, I was suddenly overwhelmed with a presence in the room with me. I had a blurry vision in my mind of Jesus coming up behind me, gently and warmly placing his hands on my shoulders and comforting me, letting me know that He still loves me. I felt the warmth of His love envelop my whole body. I cried and shook uncontrollably for several minutes before I could continue with my prayer. After that I went to Confession at the first opportunity and was released from the burden of 20 years of mortal sin. And I can honestly say that since that experience I am totally free of the desire to engage in certain lustful behaviors which I had been addicted to since I was a teen.
My life is in God’s hands now. Come what may, I know that it is His will, and that His love and mercy are endless!