I was doing some Bible reading and came across this bit of commentary from a catholic bible site:
Jesus promises that those who are willing to part with what is most dear to them for his sake “will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life” (Matthew 19:29). Is there anything holding you back from pursuing the Lord and his will for you life?
And what came to my mind was…yes there is. While I do want to do what is right, I don’t know how exactly to.
It’s with this girl, I really like her a lot, she is Catholic, I met her at my youth group and all, but she doesn’t like me anymore than a friend, so I want to you know like emotionally break off everything so I can follow my path Jesus has set for me better. I’ve been praying for her, but of course when you pray for someone you get reminded of them, so do I stop praying for her?
Also do I like avoid going anywhere where she might be? I only mainly see at youth groups anyways, and I won’t stop going to them because I learn a lot from there. How do I exactly part with what is keeping me away from following Jesus fully
Now, I was getting over her but recently some recent stuff made me like be attracted to her again. And yes it’s distracting a lot of times, I can’t stop thinking about her (not in a bad way) and it’s having an effect on my grades and my motivation for doing whatever else I need to do, so it is interfering with Jesus’ will for me, if it wasn’t, I wouldn’t be posting this.