I’ve recently moved out of my parents home on bad terms and I am staying with my boyfriends family. He works 12 hours a day, most days of the week and I work primarily on the weekends with only 4-5 hour shifts. I like to clean up the room that I am sharing and take out trash that is in there. Everynow and then I go on walks. But most of the time when he asks me what I am doing, I find myself playing video games or goofing off on the computer.
He asked me if I stressed out while playing games and I know I don’t. He does though because he says he is aware of the cost of living. He then told me that Catholics have a simple mission statement, work, love, personal integrity, responsibility. And the other half is “to live any other way is to incorporate death and sin into your soal, live without responsibility and integrity, burn in hell for all eternity.” And it is a mindset that makes you muscular inside, which is something I lack being raised nondemoninational.
I really just don’t know what to do. I am someone who thinks in the here and now, while all he thinks of is the past and future. I know I have to go to work in a few hours so I thought, “I will enjoy myself and play some games.” I often do so just because I feel like I am stuck in a waiting stage. My boyfriend tells me that is a lack of awareness and I need to take charge of myself and video games is for when you are already tired from work.
What am I supposed to do when there seems like there is nothing to be done? He says small things like cleaning and exercising and the little things one needs to take care of are all just time killers. Is that true? What am I supposed to be doing?
I want to be a happy wholesome person for me, and not do it just because I feel if I don’t, I will make him disappointed. How do I do that?