I have a lot of physical disabilities that cause me great pain and to top it off I suffer from bipolar disorder and anxiety disorder that makes me uneasy in crowds. Generally speaking I plan on attending every Sunday on Saturday night, but when I go to get ready on Sunday due to depression and the pain combined I just can't bring myself to actually get ready and go. The whole thing seems too overwhelming. Many times though I feel up to going through the week when there are few people in the mornings or I am feeling better late in the day. At these times can I go and receive communion? I find myself confessing the same sin of missing months of Sunday masses over and over, but can't change what is going on and I tend to scrupulosity. Should I just go and receive and stop confessing this?